7.

The Before Pictures [06/21/09]

How am I recovering,
How did things get so bad to begin with?
I'm not saying I have everything,
But I have room to give.

February was the coldest month of the year
I shed the same amount of tears.
"Over what?" Over what...
Over all the littles that added up
Too huge, problems that I can't handle.

March and I was fallen
He was the only one that could ever exist.
Making plans, love [that's what it was, I guess]
Keeping myself locked away from life, so careful.
I can't remember what I missed.

April, everything was set aside
I didn't try to stop myself.
Waves of blue knocked me down every time,
I started to drown, up to my eyes
In blue, just blue.

Begged and wanted me better
If that was true, then why did you leave?
[Please don't leave me...]

I'm saved
I'm better, I swear to god I am
It just terrifies me that I can
Swim, tread through the blue,

But I'm getting used to it
I swear to god I am.
Swear to god I'm letting myself
Be happy, because of you...